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Drink More Water

This morning I’m reading my bible in John 3 and I because it’s so good I continue onto chapter 4. Here Jesus talks to a Samaritan woman, whom Jews do not normally associate with, and asks for a drink. Jesus said, “Everyone who drinks this water will be thirsty again, but whoever drinks the water I give them will never thirst. Indeed, the water I give them will become in them a spring of water welling up to eternal life.”

I keep reading. I as I do this I am drinking from my red plastic water bottle thinking about the truth of being thirsty and hydrating myself right because it’s something I often forget to do. Before I run today I want to drink at least two bottles of water because I want to hydrate myself. I know that if I don’t, then I will get easily dehydrated and pass out. Bringing some water to run might help but I really need to prepare myself before I run to be safe. This way I’m not worried about making that mistake again as I have passed out from the heat before.

In this same way, I have to prepare myself spiritually in the mornings before I take on the day. If I do not consume myself in God’s word- studying it, writing it down, and praying about it- I am much more likely to stumble. I feel so much more prepared, much more confident in my step when I’ve prepared myself for the day. So this is a reminder to myself to drink more water.





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“I Believe in Miracles!”

For those who may not know, my mom’s Inflammatory Breast Cancer metastasized (spread to other parts of the body) a few months ago. Her first encounter with Breast Cancer was in October of 2008, my senior year of high school. The entire process of chemo, radiation and finally surgery, lasted about a year. Then a this past October she was having some issues that led us to find out that the same cancer cells had come back. The disease had not only reappeared in the form of 4 tumors among st the organs in her abdomen , but also in the presence of her bones. She immediately started chemo- hard chemo- 2 weeks on 1 week off (as long as her white blood cell count was high enough).

Chemotherapy is like a poison that has all different side effects that counteract with every drug that’s in your system already. It means headaches, nausea, increased heart rate, tiredness, awful random leg or arm pains, and sometimes hair loss (luckily not this most recent round). BUT even though the chemo may be killing some good cells, God has allowed this all worth it. Healing WILL come. Healing HAS come.

Got any doubt that God answers prayers?

This is the emil that my mom sent out to all the Bridgeport Middle School staff titled “I Believe in Miracles!”

I want to Praise the Lord for the positive results of my PET Scan from this Mon. Jan. 30 2012!
My initial scan on Nov. 7th 2011 showed a very large mass of lymph nodes covering almost my entire mid upper abdomen. There were numerous metastasis in the lymph nodes throughout my body. Also noted was widespread metastatic disease in the bones. CANCER seemed to fill my body.

Yesterday, the oncologist read me the results of my scan from Monday, Jan. 30th. It stated,
“Dramatic resolution” of metastatic disease. Dramatic decreased FDG activity in the abdomen…

WOW! Isn’t it amazing! In 2 1/2 months time, The measurable evidence of cancer in my abdomen showed, “dramatic resolution.” No new lesions were noted and no growth noted in any area.
Miracles still happen today! I told the Dr. and nurse that I serve a big God and had lots of people praying
for me. He is the great healer! I believe that the reduction of my cancer cells is a direct result of the many prayers said on my behalf. Thanks for your continued prayers. God isn’t finished with me yet. I believe He has wondrous plans for my future. Jeremiah 29:11 “For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, pans to give you hope and a future.”

The chemo drugs I have been taking, have been hard hitting, both to the cancer cells and to the other cells, as it doesn’t differentiate between cancer cells and healthy cells. As result, the chemo has greatly lowered my WBC’s and I have been taking injections to boost my white blood counts. Even after having 4 days of injections after my chemo on the 19th and no chemo last week, my WBC’s were too low to have my chemo treatment yesterday. I will be taking more injections this week, in order to raise my WBC’s enough to take more chemo next week.

Though the days ahead are uncertain, I know God will be with me and give me strength for every step of my journey.
Blessing to you and your families!



God is SO good.


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The Band vs. Jesus

So last night, some friends and I went to Banter to See Karyna Cruz and Zach Blach perform. At the end of Karyna’s set she cam around to talk to everyone and also to pass out bracelets, stickers, business cards, all with her name in info on it. She obviously does this so we will use these items, people will ask about it and she will get her name out there. This method easily spreads the word about her music and expands her contact with these people.

As she came around I took a couple business cards and thought to myself about who I could give these to this week. Karyna is great and clearly with the links to her website I’ve given you, I want you to be able to know who she is.

I wonder why we are so good as spreading the word about about our favorite band, but when it comes to spreading the word about Jesus (the one true God we should be worshiping), we fall short? It’s very easy for us as humans to talk about earthly things because that is what is on our minds and that is what is important to us.  But if we captured that fire, and we used it for the glory of God, think about the big things that our Lord will do.Colossians 3 says that you (we) are to “Set your minds on on things above, not on earthly things… When Christ, who is your life, appears, then you also will appear with him in glory… you have taken off your old self with its practices and have put on the new self, which is being renewed in knowledge in the image of its Creator.” How awesome is that!?!

If we are with God daily, it will begin to show in our hearts, minds, words, and actions. This is defiantly something I am working on and I challenge you to take His word to heart and do this as well. Please pray for me as I work on loving the Lord with all my heart and with all my mind, especially this week.

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It just hit me.


I miss home.

I called my mom this morning on the way to school. I needed to see if I could possibly meet up with her for lunch or something on Friday because I need to go by the house to get a board game for this weekend and also to get some rent money for next month. Suddenly, as I was talking to my mom, I apologized for not coming home more and I began to cry right there on the bus. I miss my mom. I feel like I have a lot to do for school and things here in Denton. Don’t get me wrong, I love it. School is going well and I enjoy the free time because I can finally get some extra rest, but I need to find a balance between it all. Matthew 11:28 says, ” Come to me, all you who are weary and I will give you rest.” God, that is what I need.
There really isn’t a whole lot of direction with this post other than: I think sometimes we I seek out things to do and get involved in, but I forget that what I really need more of is time with my family.


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Not without LOVE

So I’m not a perfect person, yes there is conflict in my life. But the best thing I can do to break down the walls of anger and bitterness is to love without expecting anything in return. Jesus says in Luke 6:27, “But I tell you who hear me: LOVE your enemies, do good for those who hate you.” MUCH easier said than done I know, but it seriously is possible. Only with the conviction and guidence of the Lord am I obeying Him in doing my best to follow His word. “With man this is impossible, but all things are possible with God”- Matthew 19:26. I am not responsible for the actions of others, but I am responsible for my REACTION to what they do. My only job is to like Jesus in the times of trial or victory. Phillipians 2:5 says that “your attitude should be the same as that of Christ Jesus.

It is so easy to be human, because… we are human. The natural reaction to a person who has hurt you would be to hurt them right back. An eye for an eye right? Give them what they deserve? Not exactly, not at all really. Matthew 6:14-15 says, “If you forgive men when they sin against you, your Heavenly Father will also forgive you. But if you do not FORGIVE men their sins, your father will not forgive your sins.” Whoa now. If I don’t forgive this jerk, it will effect Jesus’ relationship with ME? Jesus surely didn’t give us what we deserve. He gave us unconditional, everlasting, love even though we are pretty much jerks sometimes. Jesus is asking us to LOVE the way He loved. No matter the circumstances.

Let me just say that I was not planning on writing a post today. I am actually running a little late, but I felt called to present this scripture because I know this is something that is effecting everyone. Hope today you will show God’s love to someone who A) hates you, or B) has no interest in being nice to you. Watch what God does and you will be WOWed.

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Prayer Requests

Many of you wonderful, thoughtful, godly, people have been asking me, “How can I pray for you?”
Well, to be very honest there are many things I need prayer for right now with so much stuff going on. I’m sorry that this is so long by the way.

First though, many praises to God for all the things I have been blessed with. I am so thankful for:
1. Not dying in the 112 degree heat as we moved everything into my 3rd floor apartment on Monday.
2. Trevor, the most wonderful boyfriend, who helped moved all my heavy stuff. Not only did he help me move in, but he calms me down when I get upset or stressed about anything and he is always encouraging me. I still can’t believe what a blessing he is to me.
3. My mom sent me a heartwarming email last night, knowing exactly what I needed to hear. She reminded me of one of my grandma’s favorite verses: Proverbs 3:5-6, “Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways aknowledge him and he will make your paths straight.” Thank you mom and thank you Jesus.
4. Wonderful roommates. I can’t wait to see what the year brings. I love these girls and I can’t wait to become closer with Rachel, Gargi and Macey.
5. My attitude toward my classes right now. I am excited! I can’t wait to get back into art classes and creating my projects for classes!

I am praying for these things and you can pray for me in this way:
1. I need to keep calm and give all my worries to God. I need to have faith that he will take care of everything.
2. Keeping my time with God consistant when I wake up every morning, even if it means waking up early or delaying breakfast 20 minutes. (That may not seem like much of a sacfirice, but it really is for me. I am hungry the minute I wake up every morning. hehe.)
3. Peace among this apartment. I pray that we all get along and there will be no conflicts among us. I pray that we become closer with eachother and we can enjoying being together, making this place a home.
4. My relationship with Trevor, it has been one month exactly today and so far, things are GREAT! But I pray that we will continue to encourage eachother spiritually, put God first in our lives before anything or anyone else, and have open comminication with eachother as well.
5. This one is the biggest thing on my mind right now: Finding a new church home. As much as I LOVE Grace Fellowship so much, I know that God is calling me to a church in Denton. I need a place where I can A) be a dependable servant, B) where I can invite people to come with me from school, and C) most importantly: be in a life group with other college students who are going through the same things I am going through. This is 100% out of my comfort zone because if I had things my way, I would stay at Grace. I don’t want to leave my family, my church family, and the kids I am usually with every week, but I know that this is what God wants for my life. I can accept that this is what He wants for me, but the hardest thing will be submitting to his direction. Please pray that I can do this. I know I am not alone, Trevor will be visiting churches with me here, but still- I know it will be hard. I need to have a good attitude and an open mind about it.
Thank you so much for your prayers. You have no idea what it means to me, knowing that someone is thinking about me and praying for me. Really, thank you.

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That one thing we’re all afraid to talk about.

Why do we hide our pain?
Why do we not want to let other people see us when we are weak?
We try to be strong for those who look up to us… like we are protecting them from something terrible.
“Maybe if I don’t show my pain, and nobody can see how much I’m hurting, they won’t feel so bad. Maybe if they can’t see what I’m really feeling they won’t say anything to me and we can just pretend that everything is completely normal.” Nothing is wrong.
On the other hand if someone is hurting and you are able to sense it, that my friend is an opportunity to show love. It’s an oppurtunity for compassion.
How will anyone know that you are hurting and that you really need some love unless you voice it some way? You don’t want to just come right out and ask for whatever it is that you need because then you appear slighty weaker than you were before.
Why do we want to appear so strong?
What is holding us back? Pride?

It’s so hard to watch someone you love hurting. She is in pain but there is nothing you can do for her. She’s taken every pill on the list, the ice packs unsuccessfully attempts to numb the muscle pain, no matter which way she sits everything that’s holding her in is too tight, her body is feverish yet she shivers under a mound of blankets. Why dosen’t any of this work? Why is she feeling this way? Can’t I do anything? I hate this feeling of helplessness.

It’s hard when you have all these emotions running wild inside of you already and then you have someone else’s pain on you as well. when you love someone, the pain they feel hurts you as well. These other people who don’t know what it’s like- not because they don’t care, sure they care, but they haven’t experienced these things first hand. To be honest, it just kind of sucks.

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